“[Not in your own strength] for it is God Who is all the while effectually at work in you [energizing and creating in you the power and desire], both to will and to work for His good pleasure and satisfaction and delight.” (Phil 2:13 AMPC)
I see my history as built on phases. At 28 years of age I ‘woke up!’ What I mean by that is that it suddenly dawned on me that I had to somehow take back some sort of control of my life before I ended up really lost.
By the time I’d gotten to 30 years of age I‘d realised that whatever ’I’ was doing wasn’t working!
When I’d got to 32 I knew it was hopeless. I just didn’t have the power to quit anything, and no matter ‘what’ I tried to do, it wasn’t worth dip!
I’d tried searching for ‘meaning,‘ read loads of books, and searched many (odd) paths, but other than continuing to develop a morbid relationship with Jack Daniel’s bourbon, nothing rang my bell.
Then I went to a business meeting where a lovely old man saw my need and told me about Jesus. It was like precious water to my thirsty dying soul.
Once Jesus came in to my life and brought his love and purpose, THEN I could relate to what Love is and understood that I actually wanted to be like the Father that just birthed me.
Lord, flow in and through all Your Children today and make us all proud of You and what you’ve made of us. Amen. ❤️