“The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light. For those who lived in a land of deep shadows— light! sunbursts of light!. (Isaiah 9:2-7 MSG)
I used to say that I ‘woke up’ when I was 27. What I meant by that was, that it suddenly dawned on me that this world was intrinsically bad - that people would lie, cheat, steal and even sell their own mothers to get to the top.
Then when I was 29 I said that I ‘grew up’. What I meant was that I’d tried to be like everyone else, but all I achieved was a numbing of my conscience and a hardening of my heart.
By the time is got to 31 I had ‘grown up.’ I actually knew, that I knew, that I knew, that unless I started to take control over my (very toxic) life choices, I probably wouldn’t survive much longer, so I began my search for meaning, life, love …
I’d tried most things to find life and love by the time I’d reached 34, and even most churches, and my life was like the old joke where Christ Jesus walks past a sad man sitting on the steps of a church with the doors closed to him. He’s asks the man what’s wrong and the man responds, “they won’t let me in Jesus.” Jesus sighs and says, “Son, I’ve been trying to get into this place for years, they won’t let me in either!”
He then told me to follow him, and I haven’t looked back since. My heart is soft and my conscience clean. Thank You Jesus. ❤️.