... For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes. I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.
It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.
I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? (Rom 7:17)
How many times have your ill-judged actions or words broken your Mother’s or your Father’s heart? If you’re married, then how about your wife or husband’s? If you have kids, then how about your daughter’s or your son’s?
I remember a particularly hard Pastor, who found it difficult to show any love, every preach felt like he was delivering ‘fire and brimstone, death and destruction!’ I later heard that he was mentally abused by his father as a child and that we shouldn’t judge him but just accept that ‘broken people break people.’
I can’t speak for everyone, but I know that when ‘I’ hurt someone, the Holy Spirit moves to convict me of what I’ve done and He won’t give me any peace until I get it sorted. In fact, bragging aside, I’ve eaten so much humble pie that I blame that alone for my big fat gut!
Bottom line - there is no “click a finger / magic” healing! The ONLY way I’ve found is the Way that Jesus our Christ showed us: “...humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world. (Jam 4:7) ❤️